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this week’s digest features poems by momgrab! scroll down to check ‘em out!
LAST WEEK THE POOL GOT REALLY DEEP. CATCH UP:
TUESDAY, AUG 24 — 9:00pm cst (S2:E14)
poolboy and his brother (jjm50) catch up after not talking for almost a month. they open up about last season and long distance relationships. but jjm has a serious message for poolboy, a message that only a sibling can deliver in its full severity and get away with. how will poolboy take it?
WEDNESDAY, AUG 25— 9:00pm cst (S2:E25)
poolboy and arealtravistea made up last week and committed to being better friends. but have either received the promised token in the mail? how deep did the two of them really go? and what has been exposed? as the season comes to a close wounds old and new begin to make themselves felt, throbbing, on the skin.
THURSDAY, AUG 26 — 9:00pm cst (S2:E26)
momgrab and poolboy attempt one final cry but what wells up to the surface surprises even these battle-hardened friends. is there a way to move forward? or is there only living in a static loop of friendship? what does it even mean for friends to move forward?
FRIDAY, AUG 27 — 9:00pm cst (S2:E27)
after deciding not to break up last week, Ryan and poolboy enjoy a pleasant stream of love and jittery future nerves. it seems like the perfect happily ever after, or is it? when a long-forgotten nemesis rears its ugly head, the lovers are faced with their toughest battle yet.
SATURDAY, AUG 28 — 10:00am cst (S2:E28)
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SUNDAY, AUG 29 — 8:00pm cst (S2:E29)- SEASON FINALE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
poolboy is LIVE!!!!!! IN PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!! at Crashbox (5305 Bolm Rd. #12, Austin, TX 78721). This is not a DRILL!!!!!!! Your chance to be experience poolboy in blistering 4D. There will be drinks, installations, gallery exhibits, poolboy streaming, a smoking section, music, and more. Do not miss this insane chaotic hot mess of an event. (Masks required for indoor stuff.)
the explosive season finale is something you are NOT GOING TO WANT TO MISS.
MONDAY, AUG 30 — 10:00pm cst (S2:E30)
Join flynnstone_0 and poolboy00 for a reunion featuring all your favorite moments and characters from poolboy2!
spicy diary entry from when i was in love with Ric the 40 yr old narcissist (momgrab)
TRIED TO MASTURBATE, I WANT TO WRITE INSTEAD
I thought of lying next to Ric in the dark, him as a little boy. I thought of a little boy named Oscar I used to watch, who had to have his back rubbed to fall asleep. He’d ask me to rub, then scratch, then stop. Then he would be asleep.
I tried to think of Ric being passed around as a kid, from relative to relative. I tried to think of him as a kid at all. I tried to think of Peter as a kid, getting his heart broken again and again.
Peter might be a stronger person than Ric. But Ric might be more brilliant.
Shame on me for romanticizing Ric’s rotten life. I did what I’m sure every young girl does in his orbit. But those days are behind me.
I almost like this relationship I have with Ric in my head, now. It is so inner.
I have gotten too used to my dreams coming true. I had two dreams these two years - one was to blow everyone away with something like I always knew I could, the other was to make Peter fall in love with me like I knew he would. Both happened. I made them happen. I made them happen because I knew it would be a good thing.
Now I can make something happen that I know will be a bad thing. A “bad” thing.
He’s still close with his ex-wife.
I’m sure he would really enjoy the fact that I’m writing about him like this. But really, the joke is on him I think - I don’t know him at all.
I thought of lying next to him in the dark - me as an adult, him as a kid. You just can’t take care of people. No matter how much you want to, you just can’t take care of people.
I keep imagining someone like my mom, saying “you have no idea what people are capable of.”
You don’t know what violence really means. You don’t want to.
Obviously you want to.
I feel like I have a lover who is my best friend (Peter). A best friend who is kind of a lover (Sam).
Shame on me for romanticizing this pain. Shame on me for romanticizing broken people. I know it is normal. I still feel ashamed. It is shameful.
Shame on you for the way you treat women. I just wrote that - I was saying it to me, but could’ve been saying it to him.
Where is the line? When and how do you punish? Do you punish? Is punishment even a legitimate solution? Today on the phone, Peter said, “I don’t really get it. How can you go around causing that much pain? I just can’t really understand.” I suppose, because you don’t know you’re doing it. You don’t understand. You don’t understand how pain works. You lie and lie and lie and lie and lie and lie and lie.
How does a person lie so much? Very easily.
I am tired of these narratives. I am tired of all of it. I am tired.
I want Ric and I to stand in a room and punch each other in the face until we’re unconscious.
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